One of the hardest social situations that i had to face was starting a conversation with someone whom you know very little about or even nothing.It turns out even harder for people like me who are Introverts.I still remember me taking two months to say a "HI" to this chick who lives down the road.I am not so big on interacting with people in the real world.It is said that sometime's a look is all that is needed to start off,you give him/her a genuine 3 second's smile and you may be surprised when the object of your happiness starts a conversation with you instead.but it can't happen every time and to everyone.You need to ask them questions that will get your conversation to the interesting part of that person and then be truly interested in listening.Well for this to happen i do not think you need to be an extrovert ,you just need to trust that you will find the other person interesting and of course vice versa because everyone one of us who is out there is curious,very curious indeed.The question now is how to get your conversation to that interesting part of that someone.I would say its more or less like a Trial and Error.Practice makes one perfect.
There are people in this world who literally do not know how to respond to a casual greeting " HI ".In India if a male approaches some random chick on the walk way and says "Hi" you will get a reaction which you may have never seen before or if it was to a chick with The " ATTITUDE " factor you just said " Hi " well you get to see the middle finger ha ha or the moment we say " Hi " they start to think "Oh god,look its another guy who is trying to get me in bed with him".The worst thing i have noticed is that these type of reactions are from the educated one's.That reminds me of the two month's "hi" chick.I said hi to her finally and she said my hi to her dad,wow so grateful,thank you, hmmm.Why is it so hard to start a conversation with a girl down here.Every man is not the same and they all do not have the same intentions do they.Who ever said only a man has bad intentions.ha..
So i continue my journey of "Hi" further ahead.Social networking websites.I don't think i need to mention any in particular but there are many.There are many out there stating out, i am interested in making new friends,am jovial,out going blah blah blah,ooooh i jus love making new friends, but when it comes to really making friends those words just disappear.I don't think i am the only victim or whatever you call it when it comes to making friends through social network sites.Disappointed,i am.Some write it out so clearly that they have no attitude and they are not egoistic or even sometimes point out that they hate people with attitude.To say the truth they are the ones in Vain.What do you gain by being or showing an excessively high opinion of oneself. People are filled with so much of pride in one's appearance, qualities and abilities that they literally do not figure it out when someone really appreciates them and just for the sake of it.We come across some unique types of specimen's everyday but we never know what lies beneath their mask.Maybe i am wrong but is it wrong to ask for some genuine friends.Am not even asking for the best place in the list of friends am i. I guess i narrowed it down too much to the other sex but yes there are guys too who are self centered and a big show off. I don have anythin to show off or else i would have.lol...
Lex
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Friday, July 17, 2009
some memories do not get old-----
I guess i have been through all those depressing,embaressing,Solitary moments and situations an individual could possibly ever imagine in his/her life.I keep asking myself this question "Am i the only one going through all these in this fuckin whole world..??" Nope i guess not but then the feeling is very natural for someone who has gone though all these.U r 23 yrs old and one fine day u think of all those things that has happened for the good and bad of you and this is what came out for me..
It all starts with CORPORAL PUNISHMENTS.Those days of your early school days.I have experienced a hell lot of Corporal punishments dating from the day 1 of my school days.Imagine a hand the size of a fully grown HEALTHY adult pounding on your back and you are in your 2nd grade.Geez these adults could get really authoritative sometimes you know.I think that's how i got my back pain.I got mentally tortured for saying "I LIKE YOU"(not even i love u) to this girl in my class when i was in my 5th grade.The senior who LIKES her comes up to me and you know what...aaahhh i wan my mommy..!!
A 5th grader tot who doesn't even know how to properly indulge in a "Conversation with the one eyed-trouser snake" and getting caught by your parents for watching an A rated movie.Nope i did not know what was this word called "Embarrassing".When in college i told my friends about this incident and they were like "Whack dude,awesome"....yeah rite.I flunked in 8th grade and ended up doing it again.The reason behind me flunking--got caught for copying during the final exams.Yup a learning lesson for me but did i learn or did you guys stop copying when you went to coll,well anyway i did not n by some luck never got caught again..ha ha ha.So your lovely twin sister becomes elder to you in terms of grade wise but not age wise because she never copied or flunked like her lil brother.The sad part u have been studyin with a group of friends from 1st grade till 8th grade in the same school and suddenly from the next year you end up studying and sitting among your juniors and me the great acting like the senior of the class,ha ha.Like they give a FUCK about you.
31st of May (i don remember which year but i think i was in my 10th grade).Do you people know what is the importance or what is the 31st MAY of every year observed as.It is WORLD NO TOBACCO DAY.The back benchers of the 10th grade commerce section take THE OATH,that 10 minute long oath swearing out those words from their foul mouths "NO WE WILL NOT SMOKE OR DO ANYTHING RELATED TO TOBACCO". 8:45 AM the oath is taken and by 10:30 few parents show up in front of our Principals office.Guess what..HAPPY NO TOBACCO DAY..we got caught for smoking outside the school campus behind the nursery school wall.Out of the 5 guys who wer smokin the teacher spotted only two of us.YAY LUCKY aka LAKSHMAN,you are one of the two.Think of the height of luck when you really don't need any.Fun part: My dad comes to the school with a bottle of Brandy inside his pant pocket.Suspended for one week.Thank you !!!
Ah your first ever true LOVE.You spend hours and days waiting for her outside her tuition class for her to finish with what ever she is doing inside there and come out and u r like " OH,HEY UUUU...GOIN MA WAY.SHALL I WALK U HOME.....BLINK BLINK..".The day dreaming combined with night dreaming starts,u hug ur fav pillow n sleep with a smile on ur face n ur mum is like"what is wrong with this boy".So finally you build up the courage and ideas on how to propose her.Since its your first love lets do it grand shall we.You see her waitin for her school bus to come pick her up.From nower u build up this immence potency and the next thing you know am kneeling down in the middle of the road and giving her a red rose..(PISCEANS are born romantic).WOW .She just laughs out her wit and tells me "That's so cute of u...bye".Well at least
Am is 12th garde and our results are out.Again by some luck we all cleared it with pretty decent marks.We all went to our school and met our teachers and then one guy is like "Dude get ur dad's car and i will also get a car and lets go somewer n BOOZE.".So we all that is around 12 of us go to a TODDY shop( found in almost every lane in kerala).My instinct was siding both the sides,DONT DRINK---DRINK UP MAN..u passed....so i went with u passed and joy instinct (i had only half a glass).One of our buddy hinted us about this small lake near his house where we could all go n chill out for a while.so we reach there and even before you know it two guys are already in the water wearing jus their UNDIES(don start laughin yet).Out of the two guys again the other guy happens to be ME.The serious part:-- The neighbours were not really comfortable with us showing our butt out.An old grandma comes out of her house with a knife(more like a sickle) and threatens us to leave. NOTE:-- When a guy is drunk i mean pissed drunk,please do not disturb his happy feelings or moment until he collapses on his own and goes into hibernation for a long time. The other guy who was in the water with me was pissed drunk and eventually ended up in a fight with the local residents even though the lake was for public use,but BUTT showing,nope.So we started to move out but somebody was so pissed off at us they called the cops and yippeeeee My first POLICE JEEP ride.it was a very bumpy ride i must say.LOL.Everyones parents were informed and finally by around 9 in the night they let us go.WHOEVER called the cops on us this is for you "WE STILL HATE YOU AND WE ARE STILL CURSING YOU"....
Every teen gets so excited wen they hear they are going to THE COLLEGE.I have had a very tough time during the beginning days of my college life cause i was new in town.People around you even your own classmates do not understand you and you sit there clueless thinking on what to do next.U have no friends because of a major communication problem but still you find a couple of them with your same length n make a connection worked out and finally you find out that some of them are total ass holes.Well not all.This classmate of your's call's you out to a mall to hangout and you do so because you are bored sitting at home and one day a bunch of college gangsters come by and snatch your mobile phone and they are walking off and you are standing there watching like an ass-hole...no i did not chicken out but the guy who came with me chickened out.(I do not wish to go into detail cause it brings back bad memories and its still an unsolved mystery).I loved my N-gage QD...so i got another one and neva went to that mall with him again.
It all starts with CORPORAL PUNISHMENTS.Those days of your early school days.I have experienced a hell lot of Corporal punishments dating from the day 1 of my school days.Imagine a hand the size of a fully grown HEALTHY adult pounding on your back and you are in your 2nd grade.Geez these adults could get really authoritative sometimes you know.I think that's how i got my back pain.I got mentally tortured for saying "I LIKE YOU"(not even i love u) to this girl in my class when i was in my 5th grade.The senior who LIKES her comes up to me and you know what...aaahhh i wan my mommy..!!
A 5th grader tot who doesn't even know how to properly indulge in a "Conversation with the one eyed-trouser snake" and getting caught by your parents for watching an A rated movie.Nope i did not know what was this word called "Embarrassing".When in college i told my friends about this incident and they were like "Whack dude,awesome"....yeah rite.I flunked in 8th grade and ended up doing it again.The reason behind me flunking--got caught for copying during the final exams.Yup a learning lesson for me but did i learn or did you guys stop copying when you went to coll,well anyway i did not n by some luck never got caught again..ha ha ha.So your lovely twin sister becomes elder to you in terms of grade wise but not age wise because she never copied or flunked like her lil brother.The sad part u have been studyin with a group of friends from 1st grade till 8th grade in the same school and suddenly from the next year you end up studying and sitting among your juniors and me the great acting like the senior of the class,ha ha.Like they give a FUCK about you.
31st of May (i don remember which year but i think i was in my 10th grade).Do you people know what is the importance or what is the 31st MAY of every year observed as.It is WORLD NO TOBACCO DAY.The back benchers of the 10th grade commerce section take THE OATH,that 10 minute long oath swearing out those words from their foul mouths "NO WE WILL NOT SMOKE OR DO ANYTHING RELATED TO TOBACCO". 8:45 AM the oath is taken and by 10:30 few parents show up in front of our Principals office.Guess what..HAPPY NO TOBACCO DAY..we got caught for smoking outside the school campus behind the nursery school wall.Out of the 5 guys who wer smokin the teacher spotted only two of us.YAY LUCKY aka LAKSHMAN,you are one of the two.Think of the height of luck when you really don't need any.Fun part: My dad comes to the school with a bottle of Brandy inside his pant pocket.Suspended for one week.Thank you !!!
Ah your first ever true LOVE.You spend hours and days waiting for her outside her tuition class for her to finish with what ever she is doing inside there and come out and u r like " OH,HEY UUUU...GOIN MA WAY.SHALL I WALK U HOME.....BLINK BLINK..".The day dreaming combined with night dreaming starts,u hug ur fav pillow n sleep with a smile on ur face n ur mum is like"what is wrong with this boy".So finally you build up the courage and ideas on how to propose her.Since its your first love lets do it grand shall we.You see her waitin for her school bus to come pick her up.From nower u build up this immence potency and the next thing you know am kneeling down in the middle of the road and giving her a red rose..(PISCEANS are born romantic).WOW .She just laughs out her wit and tells me "That's so cute of u...bye".Well at least
give me back my red rose,ehh one petal....pretty please...
Am is 12th garde and our results are out.Again by some luck we all cleared it with pretty decent marks.We all went to our school and met our teachers and then one guy is like "Dude get ur dad's car and i will also get a car and lets go somewer n BOOZE.".So we all that is around 12 of us go to a TODDY shop( found in almost every lane in kerala).My instinct was siding both the sides,DONT DRINK---DRINK UP MAN..u passed....so i went with u passed and joy instinct (i had only half a glass).One of our buddy hinted us about this small lake near his house where we could all go n chill out for a while.so we reach there and even before you know it two guys are already in the water wearing jus their UNDIES(don start laughin yet).Out of the two guys again the other guy happens to be ME.The serious part:-- The neighbours were not really comfortable with us showing our butt out.An old grandma comes out of her house with a knife(more like a sickle) and threatens us to leave. NOTE:-- When a guy is drunk i mean pissed drunk,please do not disturb his happy feelings or moment until he collapses on his own and goes into hibernation for a long time. The other guy who was in the water with me was pissed drunk and eventually ended up in a fight with the local residents even though the lake was for public use,but BUTT showing,nope.So we started to move out but somebody was so pissed off at us they called the cops and yippeeeee My first POLICE JEEP ride.it was a very bumpy ride i must say.LOL.Everyones parents were informed and finally by around 9 in the night they let us go.WHOEVER called the cops on us this is for you "WE STILL HATE YOU AND WE ARE STILL CURSING YOU"....
Every teen gets so excited wen they hear they are going to THE COLLEGE.I have had a very tough time during the beginning days of my college life cause i was new in town.People around you even your own classmates do not understand you and you sit there clueless thinking on what to do next.U have no friends because of a major communication problem but still you find a couple of them with your same length n make a connection worked out and finally you find out that some of them are total ass holes.Well not all.This classmate of your's call's you out to a mall to hangout and you do so because you are bored sitting at home and one day a bunch of college gangsters come by and snatch your mobile phone and they are walking off and you are standing there watching like an ass-hole...no i did not chicken out but the guy who came with me chickened out.(I do not wish to go into detail cause it brings back bad memories and its still an unsolved mystery).I loved my N-gage QD...so i got another one and neva went to that mall with him again.
Am kind of a tall and skinny guy(my friends used to tell me that i look like this guy from the German concentration camp).I used to get scared wen i see all these huge people around me.Even for fun if they come n pat me on the back i would end up breaking a bone or two.Then this strange feeling creeps onto you"will you be able to kick someone's ass if they come up with a fight with you" cause you are so skinny you might end up breaking your own bones rather than their's.It caused such a mental dilemma to me i started dreaming about me being ARNOLD...oooohh check his body out,my my.The masculineness in his body..oh...(no i am not a GAY)...
Your lovely aunt gets you a bike without the know how of your parents(but they came to know later on).Do you even know how to drive a bike,duh who cares...i have a freaking bike(CBZ,i jus love that bike,the old beast).Your first accident.I was so used to driving a bicycle i kept mixing up things for the first couple of days.Driving down the lane a dog pops up and i wanted to apply the brakes but instead i applied the clutch(left side was brakes in a cycle but in a bike its the clutch) and the bike goes even more smooth and free..wow this is cooool....@#^&%....OUCH.
Hey lucky don't goto college today,we are bunking it today.WTF,no way dude am going to college or else we are gonna end up in some deep shit.But trust me if i had not bunked that day i would have considered myself as a LOOSER.Wat's a college life without some bunking,last bench chit chat,passing notes,eating before the break,making fun of the lecturer(without them hearing it).I once got caught for chewing gum in the class n blowing it and bursting it..lol..so i goto the principals office and he makes me write a "Letter of promise" I hereby confess my Center Fresh chewing gum which i was chewing during my class hour's and will not repeat it again.I get out of the office head straight to the loo to take a leak and put another CHEWING GUM into that promised mouth of mine.
You flunk in your internal exams and they call your parents to the college to come meet the staff and have a pep talk with your mommy and daddy.A bunch of students who do not have cool and understanding parents like our's formed a group and called up a strike.Ha ha ha they ended up in more deeper shit than they could have ever imagined of.Phew its a good thing i did not participate in this one.
Hey lovely aunt o mine,its my friends birthday today and he is treating us at his place.A long gap of silence and then "Maybe i will have a small bottle of beer".seconds later your aunt turns towards you and gives you that PARENT-ISH look.Finally after answering all those adulterated questions she gives you the go sign.You goto the party and oh my,so many strangers.You see this girl sitting in one corner and boozing all alone,you feel pity and you take a large sip and approach her in a very drunk and horny tone you say "HEY YOU,WAD UP".The head turns towards you and you go like " %#$@& i need to go to the loo, excuse moi". Fuuuuck she turns out to be a guy with long hair and good titties.Am drunk...hic......
Your second true love.You truely madly deeply fall in love with this next flat chick.You see her everyday,she see's you.She gives you those cute smiles and looks and in the next couple of days you approach her and engage in a nervous conversation and scare her but you make it up by further conversation and viola you have a GIRLFRIEND.Chatting,Dating,Hugging.You like everything she say's and does,movies,CCD,Terrace hopping,those seashore moments yada yada.Months pass by and one fine day it happened.Yup.No not sex you Perverts.She breaks up.After almost a year and a half she ask's me-------
What do we have in common? Well other than your Vertical smile and my bald headed moose, we could have had a lot of things in common if you were willing to.
Our wavelengths do not match at all !!!...hmmm i think i never received those high frequency ones.
I can't accept your attitude to life. Ah look who is talking..The perfectionist.Oh i loved someone who gets displeased with anything that is not perfect(i was going through a very hard and decisive life).Imagine-there are about 1,00,000 hairs on an average human's head,so did u mean to say that all those 1,00,000 hairs on your head was of the same length.WOW,why didn't you tell me baby,so mean of you.Mwaaaah... :)
One of the most difficult things to articulate is the feelings you get when you are apart from that someone and when they do not appreciate it when shown.
You know this friend through another friend of your's who happens to be your classmate and best bud.You start hanging out with them together and eventually you start liking the other friend as a friend and nothing more than a friend,i mean it,don't get your thought's running now.As time goes by a trust is built between us and it looked like not even the ice berg which sank the Titanic could sink our trust and friendship ( poor Titanic).They come over chill out,watch movies,talk,discuss,hangout blah blah.As time goes by the friends started doing things behind the curtain,ya ya i no what you guys are thinking of but don think to that extent.Some trusted ship eh.I guess the ice berg found its way and sank our ship too.Trust is something which takes years to build up but there are some who can break it the next minute.
well just thought would write something up and thats what you just read.
PS:Don mind the grammar cause it never comes right when you want it to.
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